hais..
i hate my actin 2dae..
abg faizal sae itz gettin better.
but den..i amnt satisfied wif de wae i act..
i kp forgettin my lines in everi scene..
itz disappoint me a lot...
aft tat half of us put on make-up..
Hidayat...look lyke a gay..
Aquilla...i cn onli ting of one word..'GHOST'..lol
Amelia..not bad..quite nice..
Ridhuan..kinda scary..wen i look at his face..
LOL..
aft tat go prata..eat..
i am so hungry..
den go home..
find out got my frens or collegue(forget hw 2 spell)
at my hse..
den rmember..got meeting held in my hse..
nw all at my room..
damn pack lyke sardine..
hais..
find nw nid 2 put up schedule for de mly drama..
here we goes....

7.00-meet at Malay classroom
=wardrobe and props..plz gather ur stuff...
=wardrobe iron all de clothes
7.20am-go to ur class for flag raisin
7.45am-go for ur breakfast and be back at 8am
8.10am-board de bus
8.40am-reach Tampines East CC
8.45am-drama rehearsal wif Abg Faizal
10am-full dress rehearsal
11am to 2pm-lunch
=aft tat free and easy(rest,actors cool down
2pm-actors start to apply make-up
3pm-briefing
4pm-performance
5.30pm-de brief and pack up
6.15pm-home sweet home..

tatz shud be de intinerary..for de drama..
ani changes..i will tell eu all..
kae tatz all..ciao

saxes
5:15 AM

i am tired!!
jz nw got mly drama..
no mood..
i dunnoe wad happen 2dae..
i am so..
i haf a mix feelinz..
i am jz stress!!
aft de drama..
go eat prata..
damn wadlar..
den go Hougang Point wif Yusoff and Hidayat..
rush back home..wen mum callin..
i am so sad....
dunnoe wad happen 2 me!!
ARGH!!...
i dunnoe..

saxes
7:06 AM

in mly class.
studyin..er..LOL
nw i am so attached wif de mly drama kidz..
yea...
awaez hang out wif dem..
kinda haf a bondin..
itz gettin closer each dae..
xcept for someonelar..
plannin 2 go shoppin aft mid-year..
buy bagz 2geda..
and 2 show tat we r bonded!!
kae..i mish band a lot..
though i kp gg dere..
yea..
i am still disappointed wif myself..and tatz true..
ahha..
one more wk mly drama Final..
and we jz kinda mess up everi single ting..
dunnoe why..
mayb teachers and instructor kp tekan us..
damn tired eu knoe..
why cnt dey understand tat we r tired...
we got so mani tingz 2 do..
yea..i am back wif hym again..
wow..
itz gg 2 be one year alreadilar..
kinda shock wen i tink abt it..
well..itz gwud actualli..
hope tat relation cn be last long..
yea...
gee...
oh my....i so..hate tat gurl man!!
cnt take it..
if onli i cn dream of her..
i will kill her in my dream sia...
but if in reality aoso..i dun mind..
yea...
tat gurl cn juz FUCK OFFla..
she so gg 2 get it 2ml..
ahahha..i lurv it..
i hate her a lot!!!
so do de rest of uz!!..
my sis and broz..
we hate her lotz!!!
she absoluteli an ASSHOLE!!!
cnt believe she lyke our instructor..
plzlar..
tat tyme durin rehearsal..
sit in front of hym..and act shy..
go and die sia!!
den go home earli..
plzlar..
dun act so pretty!!..
tink eu so great meh??!!
cnt wait for 2ml..
my BIG dae!!!

saxes
1:04 AM

i dunnoe why..
bt i keep cryin..
yea..
i haf disappoint everibodi..
xpecialli does who i lurv..
i hate myself...
i am sori..
i cnt sae tat i lurv eu and eu mean a lot 2 me..
bef eu go.......
and de sad ting ish tat i dun haf de chance 2 sae sori 2 eu..
i knoe itz 2 late...
do eu knoe tat..
wen i tink of de past..
i will rmember tat specific date..
yea..16 may 2005..
yeapz..tatz de date..
i hate tat date..
i jz cnt believe tat i mish eu a lot..
so lotz till i dun even knoe hw 2 decsribe it in words..
everityme all de memories flash back 2 my head..
i start 2 hate myself..
and i tend 2 blame everitin on me...
though i knoe i shud nt..
i knoe it means to be tat wae..
bt i've awaes haf tat feelin...
tat...i am GUILTY..

saxes
8:22 AM

2dae kinda screw up everitin..
fr' malay drama to my werk..
i am so pissed off sia...
GREAT!!jz a great dae
i am startin 2 hate myself...
actualli my life..
i jz wanna giv up on everitin..
jz nw my instructor kinda pissed off wif our actin..
duh..itz been a long tyme sia..
aft tat...go MACDONALD
wif Aquilla,Amelia,Manan,Hidayat,Hamqah and Yusoff.
we keep talkin CRAPlar...
makin a fool..kind of scariee 2..coz lot of de ppl kp lookin at us..
wdh..as if we care lyke tat...
aft tat rush to Tampines..
great..
i screw up everitin..
fr' de proposal to de presentation..
and we cnt get tat client..of ours..
haiz...
all diz ish my faultlar...
i am startin 2 blame myself...
for all de probs.tat i cause..
i am so sad..devastated..my heart ache..

hey babe...i lurv eu a lot.bt i am scared..
eu will left me lyke 2 years ago..
i lurv eu a lot..and tatz true..

saxes
5:53 AM